Date:  Fri Apr 27, 2001  2:02 am		

Hello my name is Michele and Im so happy to be here. I have been off 
antidepressats for almost a year now. My exp with paxil was so awful 
I can hardly discuss it.  I tried briefly effexor after that then 
buspar. I have really needed support from people who have problems 
but choose not to take meds. There is ZERO support out there if you. 
dont get on meds!!!!! Can we discuss here things like what works for 
others? Like excercise etc? I would love any ideas. :) Thanks, 

Michele

Date:  Fri Apr 27, 2001  2:06 am

Response1:
Michele,
You have come to the right place. There is alot of good info here, and alot 
of wonderful people. You can also search the archives if you are interested 
in particular information. 

Angie 

Date:  Fri Apr 27, 2001  4:30 am

Response2:
Michele:  Welcome to the group.  My experience with Paxil was the same.  And 
yes, we are always brainstorming about exercise, nutrition, meditation, 
vitamins, herbs.  This is a great group of people and hopefully you will one 
day share your Paxil experience with us.  I've been off Paxil for 3 years and 
I'm still not totally well.  

Trisha

Date:  Fri Apr 27, 2001  3:03 pm

Well basically it was a bad first month. Honestly I thought I would die at 
first then later when I saw how I changed I wanted to die. I probobaly 
shouldnt go into it. I am still pretty angry about the whole thing. :/  IM 
still not completely better but I do feel much better! The biggest problem I 
face now is I feel so alone in being drug free. The list I was on was big on 
meds. No matter what I said they would say Im sorry your hubbie wont let you 
get on meds etc.... Frankly Id rather be dead than be on them. The problem is 
if I quit working out for a week I get a little grouchy, moody, depressed, 
anxious that kind of thing. I beleive its liveable. But I have made mistakes 
like not doing well in social situations etc... The thing I do now is only be 
around people who I love and care for and feel accepted. I homeschool and 
when I try to get my kids in some of the groups I have that socail anxiety 
again. As long as I avoid those situations Im better though. I was never diag 
with anything except anxiety. I Never show up anything on those Dr tests for 
depression or bi polar. But yet Im borderline something. At this point I dont 
even care about Diag just to live each day etc.... Sorry to put my business 
out there LOL. Are any of you diag with any of this stuff ? Boy I sure wish I 
had met yall last year. The withdrawels almost got me in 2 wrecks etc.... 
Once I was driving to a friends house but just couldnt seem to get there. I 
somehow went the wrong way. Then the next day I tried again and don't remember 
driving except that the next thing I new I was the middle of an intersection 
at a 4 way and this man was yelling at me! I dont have any idea what 
happened.  I tapered off the best I could by opening the pill caps and using a 
little bit each day., I put it in orange juice. I read it somewhere? What I 
said then and now is :
Why isn't this on the 6 oclock news? My Drs acted liked they had never heard 
of withdrawels. Are they freaking crazy?  You start to feel paranoid like the 
hell your feeling isn't real because after all the Dr said there's no 
withdrawels. So did the pharmacist. This should be discussed on TV radio 
everywhere. People are NOT warned and it's wrong. Please excuse my language. 
This topic gets me angry LOL :) 
Im so glad I found yall!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Michele

Im not sure if this will help at all but I noticed during both of my 
withdrawels that that last phase of major pain was in a strange thing going 
down the back of the right of my neck. I always wondered what part of the 
body that was. But the pain will leave I promise. It seems like Hell for a 
very long time then all the sudden you wake up and feel better one day. :)

Michele

Date:  Fri Apr 27, 2001  3:23 pm

Are any of you like me where watching other people suffer or go through 
withdrawel makes you mad?

Michele

Date:  Fri Apr 27, 2001  3:50 pm

Response:
YES!  Especially when doctors say, "Oh, there is no such thing as 
withdrawal!"  That's what my doc told me; he said that all my symptoms added 
up to schizophrenia, to which I replied, "Go f*** yourself!" and slammed down 
the phone.

Trisha